I'm so ***ing scared.

People f*cking suck.

No, they don't.Yes they do. I'm scared sh*tless. You have no f*cking idea. Maybe you do, actually. But I don't care right now. I don't care if you "know what it feels like." I don't f*cking care. I'm so scared. I'm so scared.

My best guy friend, Ryan is going to Afghanistan. Soon. Really f*cking soon. He just told me now.

I'm mad.

I'm scared. I've never been so scared in my life.

I don't want him to go.

I'm sorry for so much swearing and repetition, but I'm f*cking terrified.

He only told me the day that he's going and that it's to Afghanistan. He hasn't said anything else. He doesn't want me to worry. I'm glad he's not saying too much, but I'm still curious. But I don't think I want to know. I'm f*cking having a heart attack just knowing this. I'm so, so, so scared.

SJKGHSKJSH.

To make it even better, the only person I want to talk to right now isn't online. It's like two in the morning where he is. Omfg.