Save me.

Why do I have this weird feeling in my stomach? Why am I being nice to my family? Why do I think that life is finally better than my dreams? Why do I lie on my bed and think about everything, about what I can do to keep the pieces together?

Have I had a sudden change in personnality? If so, then why don't I like it? Why am I finally laughing like an idiot whereas before I just backhanded the guy that made the stupid joke? what is WRONG with me?!

i've been like this for a good two whole days, and it's driving me crazy. It's like, as soon as I think of this one guy I don't totally hate I forget everything else I was doing.

...Oh.My.Gods. I'm in love, aren't I? And that feeling, it's butterflies. And I'm listening to LOVE SONGS. WHAT HAPPENED TO MY METAL!?

Well, you just read this, didn't you? I need advice. Like, now. How do I fall out of love?

please help me, I'm desperate. DX