25 facts... want to get something off your chest, too?

1. I suffer from OCD which is a side effect of something more serious.

2. I have little to no self esteem.

3. I get let down a lot because I view everyone as perfect, until they hurt me.

4. My favourite colour is orange.

5. There's never enough time for me. I want to do too much in a day but end up doing next to none of it.

6. I have the greatest intentions, and I wish I could just live upon them.

7. I feel I should accept any kind of attention (when there is any) from boys because no matter how many faults they have, or how unattractive they are to me personally, it's probably the best I'll get.

8. I have nightmares about the world ending due to Global Warming at least twice a month. I can't sleep when I have them.

9. I tell my parents I don't sleep very well because I suffer from insomnia. I tell everyone else that too. Granted, I'm a light sleeper, but it's usually because I force myself to stay up late via some method like writing, reading or plain old thinking.

10. I hate crying in front of other people. I hate showing any emotion involving sadness in front of anyone, which is impossibly hard as I'm an overly sensitive person.

11. I cried in front of my therapist last week. It felt crushing but relieving afterwards. I never want to cry in front of her again but I know I will.

12. I think the reason I write so often is so I can escape my own reality.

13. I'm constantly questioning people's real intentions inside my head. Soon enough I'll figure out I really have nothing to give to them, as I'm not special. Maybe people actually like me for who I am, although I doubt it, as I don't know who I am.

14. I change depending on who I am with. I could be heavily satirical, I could be quiet and contained, I could be outrageous and bubbly. Maybe I'm a mixture, I don't fucking know.

15. I don't have a forte and it kills me.

16. I want to be a green chemist because nothing frightens me more than Global Warming, so I think that's why I'm so interested in it.

17. I want to be a comedian to break the stereotype that women aren't funny. People tell me I'm funny and that's about the only compliment I can take.

18. I want to be a radio broadcaster for Radio 1 because I love the station and music they play. It seems like the easiest, most enjoyable job in the world. Basically I want to be the next Chris Moyles without the obesity and slight misogyny.

19. Deep down, I still think I can be with my celebrity idol. I still think we could be together when I'm a little older. I understand many, many girls will think the same, and like them, I think it's me he'll choose. Move over, he's mine.

20. I'm more honest with my internet friends than I am with my real friends. It's only very, very recently that I've found a best friend, of whom I have known for a while, but not fully acknowledged as a best friend. It was a mere few days ago I told her something she didn't know about me, something no one except me knows. Something internal. Anyone can see my external, so I keep that to a minimum, what I reveal externally.

21. I'm not really close with my family. It's awkward with anyone other than my parents and brother. Although I know I'm my nan's favourite and that makes me feel a little better.

22. I remember things I've said that were meant to be funny and weren't. I remember things that have come out wrong and been twisted in a way to either make me look foolish or accidentally offend someone. I vividly remember the time I told my mum I was going to kill myself. I remember times when I've been told off precisely. Negative things are always so clear to me.

23. Sometimes I want to completely rip apart my body with alcohol and drugs and nicotine, but I don't want to be known as the walking contradiction. I'm the good girl, I'm the one trusted by parents. I'm the one who won't dismiss others for their habits at the time they do it, so they don't view me as a goody two shoes. I'll completely bash their beliefs when they're not doing it at that present time.

24. I, personally, believe my best features are my eyes and my legs.

25. I'm a 32C.