Me and my sucky life xD

Hey I am new in here. Just found mibbe on a web serch and I'm really glad I did it.
Writting is what I love the most but you'll have to forgive me for some mistakes I may have because english is not my language, just practise very hard to make it good.

I have not been very well. Pain all day long... mental and phisycal:

Mental - I am away from my friends and I find it very hard to live without them. And at the same time I feel like I am alone here (somewhere), like I'm lost in this big worls and soooooooo lonely... Just ended a 8 year friendship with my so called bff; My male bff seem to be going away too and I don't know what to do to keep him with me...

Phisycal - Almost two years ago I sprained my ankle and ruptured some ligaments. My stupid person refused to follow the doctor's orders and one week later was walking and running and playing soccer on it...not a very good idea. So now I am in constant pain (sometimes worse than others) and I can't tell my parents because I've been hiding the situation from them... long story short I'm scrued...LOL

But even when my life is a mess I love being alive and being here, doing what I love the most...