Alot has Changed

Ummm... i think i know were to start now...

Alot has happned scince my last entry, ALOT, i taked to some people, and things have happened,

All starts well, scince my last post if found a girlfriend, no its not beth, a new person, who interested me, and kept my mind off her, and it kind of worked but not for long. i thought everthying was great, and throught that nothing could stop us. then one night, she was at mine and she kissed me

This is probably a very nerdy thing to say but that was my first kiss, it was magical and spectacular in every way. Then it all went downhill, right after that kiss she broke up with me. That was one event in my life i didnt see coming, and i went into denial. I hate to admit it and i still dont know why i did it today but i cut myslef. Not majorly, not a giant gaping thing like my other scar (that happned in a freak accident earlier in 2009, not my fault), and i remreber my mum askinf me what it was and i said i fell over, yet it bled, and i thought it was kind of special. it only stopped belleding when i thought i had gotton over her. which was three days later. i dont know if thats normall for a scar, it wasnt too big, only about 2 inches, not deep at all. and then sadly i slipped into my old ways

when i thought i was over her i popped on to msn. guess who was on?? Beth. she openede a conversation saying 'hi'. i said 'hi' back. then she said 'hows life'. then i slipped, i told her everything. then regretably, all the feeling came rushing back, i had not thought/ talked to her scince i founf the new girl. then it all came back. all the feelings, all the everything..

help???