Okay, so, you can go back and read my other journals if you want to know what's going on, but I'll quickly summarize each problem before I talk about how I finally have overcome it! :D
First off, my birthday was yesterday. My big one-four! I'm going to be a freshman in four days and I'm so excited! I got all the classes I wanted an everything, and I have my lunch period with a bunch of awesome people! I even managed to get a zero period so that I could take art AND language! Art Fundamentals and Japanese 1. Squee!
For my birthday, I got hot pink/magenta and bright blue leopard print bra (I love my friends xD), purple zebra print shoes, an adorable bag that has a happy hamburger and an angry bear and it says "please do not feed the animals", a checkered messenger bag, a pair of lime green checkered sunglasses, a new computer monitor, a cheetah print bangle, a leopard print bangle, some pins (I collect pins), and a $15 iTunes gift card, and I haven't even got all my gifts yet. xD
Now, I have recently had a problem with anorexia, and thanks to the support of my friends and of fellow mibbians, I have become very comfortable with my body! I love my curves, I love my giant ass (lmaoooo), I love my 38C's that I used to hate, and my mom is buying me some cream to get rid of my stretch marks. I feel beautiful... For the first time in my life. <33 I've worn shorts for the first time in three years, I've let my crush see me with absolutely no make-up on, and I didn't even feel self-conscious! You know what? I'm heavy, but I'm proud. Sure, I'd love to lose a few pounds and get healthier, but only so I can get rid of my high cholesterol, not because I think I need to be a twig. :]
Also, I recently had an issue with a boy; he wanted to be friends with benefits, and he wanted pictures of me, and I gave in. I gave him full nudes and everything, but, recently, I told him exactly how I felt: like a whore. I told him I couldn't do it anymore and that if he was really my friend, he'd understand and he'd stop asking for pictures and we could put this all behind us and stay friends. Not only did he respect my wishes, but he congratulated me on being able to stand up for myself, he called me a "strong person". I've never really been one to stand up for myself before, but I did it. I really did it. And I've never been more proud of myself. <33333
Thank you all you mibbians so much for your support and help, and thanks to my friends for supporting me as well.
I haven't been this happy, this comfortable, and this amazing in a long time. Thank you. <3
my birthday, self-confidence, and other good things finally happening! :D
August 21st, 2010 at 08:12pm