trust issues and other things.

It seems like recently, everyone has been treating me differently. I'm super nice to everyone, and I don't do anything to anyone, or anything like that. And for some reason, it seems like they all seemed to decide to treat me differently in a mean way. I don't know why. I;m always nice to them, I don't get what the problem is =/

As far as trust issues go, I don't know how I can get myself to fully trust my boyfriend. I know you guys probably don't want to hear this, but I just needed to put this somewhere. Everytime he says something that makes me suspicious, I can't help but think that he's lying to me or keeping secrets. And well, he has this ex that I just can't help but feel he still has feelings for. I mean, he always tells me that I'm the only one and it's always been about me, but I just have that feeling and it will never go away.

I'm just a paranoid freak.

Oh and another thing that does not relate to my boyfriend is that I feel like people are judging me without even getting to know me.

Sigh.