i need it

Wow. I just typed this really long thing, but then I accidentally erased it all. Now I feel like i don't want to type it again, but I need to. Because I need to tell someone about this.
I feel like I need to take melatonin to get to sleep. I haven't taken it for about a month now, or less, I think because some people don't like me taking it and it makes me have horrible dreams. But it's time like now; up late and hyper, that I think that I really need to take it.
I'm glad it's not a physical addiction, that it could only be psychological because there's nothing in it that is physically addictive. But I still think I need it.
this makes me sound like a druggie. I'm not though, it's only melatonin, a natural sleep-aid.
I want to sleep. And the bottle is just beside me. I could so easily reach out and get it and take some and sleep. Which I really need right now. But I don't want to have the horrible dream it causes.
I really hope I can get over wanting to take it because I feel horrible when I do take it when I know people don't approve of it.
I think I might be tired enough that I could just fall asleep, but I'm not sure.
Thank you for reading this, I just really needed to tell someone.