broken down

have you ever realized that words can tear you down over time? that when someone you love says them to you its the worst and you try to hol d your head high and shrug it off by telling urself their just mad or they didnt mean it. but after time and after they repeat it over and over again...you start to believe it...your worthless rings in your head the words you are so stupid ring in yur head. you know theyre doing it for some unknown cause, and when you finally break down they dont even seem to care they just think its stupid you are crying and leave you a broken mess on the floor. the person whose supposed to always be there to pick you up...walks out of your life and leaves you broken, saying to not go near them tomorrow cause they want to think...promises dont mean shit they were made to be broken it seems. an endless friendship has as it seems hit an abrupt end....i love you i dont want this to be good by i dont know if i can handle it...