Spinning

The world is spinning, my head is spinning, everything is spinning. This way, then that way, then up, then down, then out of control.

Sometimes I feel like I am completely and utterly out of control, like someone or something has torn the steering wheel of my life from my hands and just spun it, content to watch my life fall into chaos. I fall, no longer holding onto the edges of sanity, but instead becoming a part of the hurricane.

I'm being quite vague, aren't I?

I'm a bit of a perfectionist, a bit of a bossy boots. I hate being out of control, hate feeling like I don't have a say in my own life.

I hope that soon it all spins back into focus again.