Get ready for the crash

Mood alert...
Mania is amazing,
The crash sucks,
How can I make these easier to deal with,
The meds aren't working,
I just need a little advice,
I was diagnosed with manic depression aka bipolar,
It sucks but I can deal with it,
The meds I take now dull all my senses,
Making me feel like a walking corpse (ZOMBIE!!!!!),
And I hate it....
Right now I'm just waiting for the crash and burn...
And that's what I would call blue screens,
Where I'm at my worst,
And all I can think about is death,
A way out,
Then comes the self medicating,
Which doesn't help much in the end......
So now I'm just looking for.........advice...