Life...Love...UGH!!!

I feel as if my life is just to full right now! Don't ask if that even makes sense.... Just nothing feels right. Like I'm not doing what I'm supposed to. I have recently not been able to get my ex bf out of my head. No idea why. I truly hate it! SSSSOOOO MUCH! I haven't had a thing to do with him since Homecoming... like 2/3 months ago. we broke up back in july.... and I'm so impressionable to start liking someone! This is not a good thing right now, have a college guy, he's not (from what i know) just some asshole who wants sex college guy, but he's...well he is DB. and I know him. but I've never actually talked to him in person. But he is totally my type! welll artsy i guess is my type :) anyways I started liking him just because he shows interest in me! I think him and my sister should have been together way back when they were in school together! I think that's why I like him. But idk i want to just give up on feelings right now. I want my heart to fall in love when its ready! not just because i like the attention. He's got to be amazing and so far I haven't let myself find that higher up.. i keep going for lower...UGH! Idk if any of this is making sense... i don't feel like reading back through it so...have fun :)