Well in a number of different entries I've talked about this certain person who has hurt me
now the 3rd or 4th time. Well here we go again. Had my feelings hurt. He now has a
girlfriend after today, after sorta just being friends with benefits. We talked about
relationships together, his answer went along the lines of "I don't want to hurt you to make
you hate me forever." I should have known this would happen. In reality in the back of my
head. I did know. But I guess I yet again had my feelings hurt over some stupid happy place
where maybe I could have a relationship. I never have any luck. I can't even seem to catch a
friggin' break anymore. It all started with my grandfather committing suicide. Then watched
my grandmother die, my dad then died, my first love cheating on me and leaving me
depressed, that ex telling lies about me, my grandfather dying, and in the mist of that all on
and off with that guy. I don't know what to do with myself. I've had depression for about two
years on and off. I feel really alone. I don't even know what to say. As usual writing this all
down helps me cope with my feelings.
Heartbroken? Depression? Lonely?
December 14th, 2010 at 03:49am