Looking Back...

So, I'm not writing this because it's the end of the year. Because the year isn't over yet. It's close, but not quite. I'm writing this because tomorrow is my 14th birthday.

Now, don't get me wrong. I do celebrate my birthday and all. Just... not really. I don't have a party or anything. Because it really sucks when you invite ten people over and they all say they can't come but then are talking about what a great time they had at a sleepover.

Anyway... my view of my birthday is that I'm really just another day older than I was yesterday. Except this is a good chance to look back and see what I was like at this time last year.

I think that emotionally, I've grown. I've become a lot better at hiding my emotions, which is good from my perspective.

Physically... well, I'm still as tall as I was when I turned 11. But I am definately stronger, and more coordinated.

I'm also probably much more down to earth than I was. Although my imagination is still working strong, and I still have big hopes and dreams, I'm not all that spastic.

My friendships have all become more complicated. I feel like I don't really have any true friends. More like... people that I can be around in school that can tolerate me. The last time I actually hung out with someone outside of school was over two years ago. Kinda sad...

I feel like my writing skill, when I'm trying, is much more refined. Although I do still have that problem of abusing elipsises. And chopping all my sentences short. I guess that's kinda because it's how I talk, and I write how I talk.

In general, I think I've become a better person in the past year. I used to really want to get involved, do some good. This past year I've become a little more proactive.

As far as negatively, I think that I've gotten worse socially this year. I'm rather shy, so I suck at making new friends, most of them I did make were online, and the 'friends' I had... well I don't really think they're good friends, so I've kinda gone away from them. They got into some things that I'm not comfortrable with... I'm kinda lonely, really...

Other than that... this year's been pretty good for me. I stayed out of trouble really well (Actually, now that I think about it, I hardly got into any trouble with anyone. Parents... teachers... other kids...)

Biggest lesson I've learned this year? Making enemies doesn't help. Seriously. I do everything I can to avoid getting others mad at me, and in turn, I'm treated with a mutual respect.

I haven't done a ton of reading this year, I guess... more writing. Well, on the other hand, I did a lot of RPing, which is half reading and half writing.

So what can I do to be even better in the next year?

-Try to show even more maturity
-Be more proactive
-Try and be a little more socialable
-Enjoy life a little more

Yeah, that sounds good...

~Winter