1. I desperately want to be accepted
2. I am afraid of not winning this battle
3. Just now I am figuring out who I am
4. I have a hard time with the concept of forgiving
5. I smile all the time because I don't know what else to do
6. I am starting to become comfortable with the idea that I am ordinary and that there's nothing wrong with that
7. Sometimes I just want you to listen, not talk, not interrupt, not offer advice or suggestions. Sometimes all I want is you to sit there and listen and to feel like I have been heard
8. Sometimes the weight of my sadness is bone-crushing, like the pressure of water down deep
9. I hurt myself because it's the only feeling (pain) that I can stand to feel
10.At the start of the next day, before I even brush my teeth, I ask God to help me stop myself from hurting either myself or anyone around me
10. I'm deathly afraid of growing up and dealing with all the things a grown-up must think about, even though I'm technically an adult
11. There are so many things I wish I could say
12. Words and actions hurt me even though they weren't meant to
13. I cry when you hug me because of the emptiness and pain I know I'll feel when you finally do let me go
14. I am so incredibly mean to myself. I wouldn't talk to any other person on earth the way I talk to myself
15. What I want right now more than anything is love from myself. If I had more self love, the criticisms, the negativity, the thoughts, the low self-esteem, the self-doubts would all cease
16. I sometimes need your help, but I'm not sure how to tell you this
17. I really do care about you, more than you could even imagine
18. I cry when no one is around
19. I am an emotional and sexual abuse survivor. I am on a healing mission to make sure I stop the cycle of abuse and never pass on what happened to me to someone else. I think that that makes me pretty unique and remarkable
20.I felt too ashamed, too dirty, too embarrassed and too scared to tell you that I couldn't cope without hurting myself
22. I have a very difficult time seeing myself as a girl/woman/anything feminine
23. I want to make a difference in the world
24. I am unable to see my potential right now but it helps me to hear you when you tell me it's there
25. I'm afraid to know myself and understand my feelings and wishes
26. As I'm smiling and laughing, I have voices screaming and degrading me in my head
27. I blame myself for being raped
28. I am at a crossroads. For thirteenI have tried to be someone else. I have sweat, cried, screamed my way out of my skin
29. My family is more dysfunctional than I like to admit
30. When I laughingly say I don't want to grow up, I'm not joking. I really am terrified
31. I believe that everyone's flaws should be accepted and forgiven except for mine
32. I am honorable
33. I lied my way through treatment and I'm now paying the consequences
34. I'm scared to leave the student world and enter the real world alone
35. I miss my parents like mad
36. I feel there's an empty hole in me
37. Some days I feel like the old me & it feels so liberating
38. More than anything I long for a mother who loves me and listens to me and to go home and feel safe
39. I feel guilty about all the pain I feel
40. I hate, absolutely hate, feeling vulnerable and I will do almost anything to avoid it
41. I feel nothing most of the time and I wait to see your reactions before I know how to respond/reply/react myself
42. I am really sensitive although I appear unfeeling
43. I'll lie to everybody to keep them from being hurt or from hurting them
44. What I want most is to just hear that I am ok just the way I am even if my natural state isn't common, normal or cool
45. I worship the ground my big sister walks on and she doesn't even know it. I compare myself to everything she does
46. What you said/did hurts
47. Sometimes I feel like I don't belong anywhere and I feel like an alien and that I don't belong in this time because my outlook feels so foreign
48. I don't like myself right now and I need support, but then when I get that support, I'm scared to let go of it again, scared that I'll lose it
49. I still sleep with a stuffed animal
50. No one could berate me more than I do myself
51. I hate being needy and yet I long to be taken care of
52. I am a scared little girl searching for a daddy to love her
53. Without this mask I don't really know who I am
54. I'm not trusting of anyone
55. I simultaneously crave both fitting in and standing out. I feel like a failure when I'm different, and I feel like a failure when I blend
56. I wish that I didn't hate myself but at the same time, I don't know how it would feel to like myself
57. The bigger my smile, the larger my pain
58. I use my body to convey what my words cannot
59. I always feel like a burden but usually I hide that
60. I don't want you to give up on me
61. I have big dreams and wish that I believed enough to make them become a reality
62. I don't even know myself
63. I want to love my father, but I cannot figure out how
64. For years, I longed for someone to know my secret, in the hope they'd stop the pain and stop me from hurting because I didn't care enough about myself to stop myself
65. When I do something stupid, and remember it later, the "me" in the memory always looks fat and ugly
66. I have no confidence in myself or my abilities
67. I struggle to believe in myself at times and fear being hurt by criticism but I am courageous and don't shrink back from those things I am gifted at
68. I will not show that I am mad at you. In fact, I probably won't even feel mad at you, unless someone else reassures me that it IS something to be mad about
69. I want to find something that will make my parents proud of me
70. I love you even when you don't think I do
71. I'm so, so sorry for all the times I lied to you
72. I am scared shitless because I don't know what to do with my life and I cannot cope without direction
73. I only pretend to be immature: I'm scared to show you just how serious and deep I can be
74. I need help believing in myself
75. I am holding on to my faith and my belief in God
76. I don't know who I am or what I'm all about
77. I don't feel that I deserve your unconditional love
78. Even when it doesn't look like it, I am trying, and I'm doing my best in the moment
79. I won't ever measure up to "you"
80. I harbor an immense amount of guilt over my actions and this prevents me from telling you, as I don't want you to shoulder my pain and my burden, or know my shameful secret for what it is
81. I am really afraid that I could really exceed beyond my wildest dreams. But I have never let myself try, because what if I succeed then fail miserably
82. I'm scared that this will kill me
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