I miss you...

James Owen Sullivan,
The Reverend Tholomew Plague,
Jimmy.
It's been nearly one year since the tragic passing of arguably one of the greatest drummers of all time. (Title not strictly based on talent.) Described as everyone best friend and favourite person.
To put it bluntly, i'm a fucking mess.
For as long as I can remember i've wanted to be a drummer, the day I discovered Avenged Sevenfold's music [august 20, 2004, I was at my aunts house, bored out of my mind] I fell in love.
I write this with shaky hands, labored breathing and tears...
I understand many people have "heroes" but my one wish was to meet this man, every 11:11, shooting star, birthday candle, fluffy dandelion, anything I could get my hands on. I've never been to a concert, and no offense, I couldn't handle one now because my one true hero was taken.
Jimmy, you better be rocking the fuck out of wherever you are, it can't be heaven, because there is no "God" who would be cruel enough to take you away from us? And yet, now I question, was he protecting you from something worse? So many questions are left unanswered, so many dreams crushed, I haven't touched my drum set since that one. fateful. day.
My thoughts, prayers and condolences go out to any other fans, supporters and especially members of the Avenged Family during this difficult time, and always.
foREVer.
RIP Jimbo, I love you.