Two years later, same old S**T

I feel like I should just take my first journal entry, and copy and paste in here.
It'd pretty much sum up everyone that's happening right now... only everyone is two years older.

So, here is what happened.
Over the summer, I was at my friends house for a little get together for her birthday, and nobody really came, so we went to get her boyfriend, and on the way, we called another guy to see if he wanted to hang out too. It just so happens that that guy is the guy that has been in my life for just too long, never completely a part of it, but never fully out of it. It sucks. [If you don't know, we dated back like four years ago, and broke up blahblahblah, dramadramadrama]

Anyways, he said yeah, so we went to get him. Then ended back up at my friends house about an hour later or something, and she has a pool. So, its a nice summer day, we're having fun, playing around in the pool. Guys will be guys, and for some reason they like throwing people around in the water, so next thing you know, my girlfriend and I are flying around splashing water everywhere.

And of course, here comes the cliche moment, things slow down with the guy and I. (we're going to call the guy... freckles... idk why) So I'm in Freckle's arms, and hes just holding me, and its so obvious that hes looking down at my lips... or whatever else is downward haha. It is a girl's instinct to know when somebody is thinking about kissing them. So at first I kept moving away from him, you know, not really wanting to kiss him, until finally I gave in. I know I shouldn't have, it would only cause a little riff in the atmosphere, but I didn't care. Bad mistake. From there, we shared a few tiny smooches, until finally I was cornered. Well, actually, to be exact, he was against the side of the pool's wall, and i was in front of him. This is were things got a little heated. Spanish or Reggae music was playing in the background; so great... -_- but luckily, my friend, hah or well, my girlfriend's boyfriend cleared his throat at us. And yeah, he's Dominican Republican, and unafraid of speaking out his thoughts. So, he didn't let me live it down.

So, that was the beginning of our new found... relationship? Later on, we were talking and decided we wouldn't jump into things and we'd go on a little date, but we never did. Then come school.

We would just see each other in passing in the halls, but sometimes he would stop. I swear I just forget about everyone around us once I see him come towards me. It is quite sickening. But yeah, not until recently though, he told me he liked me. Like really liked me. Now, this guy is what some would call a ladies man. Then the next thing you know, another cliche moment. We slowed down, and me being super impatient just took a dive and give him a little kiss. But, yeah, this was like a week or so ago. It's driving me crazy. I really do not want to like him, but Ugh! It is just impossible. But, he makes it easier because he barely texts back/ calls, so yeah.
Where do I go from here?

Also, my so called best friend, that I've known since kindergarten hates me. :] She called me a hypocrite, jealous, andddddd something I can't remember. Fake? Oh well, you guys know what I'm getting at. But yeah, call me a douche bag, because frankly, I don't care either way. I mean, it would be awesome if we were friends, but I feel like there's no going back, even with our given history. She wrote me five page letter! Front and Back! Just talking about all the things wrong with me, something or other. Yeah, it hurts, but what can I do? I wrote like a three page later in response. But I don't want to give it to her for some reason. I feel like it would only make things worse, even though it is nothing like an anger ridden letter. I don't think she would appreciate it either way, because I guess everything I do is to make her feel worse.................

*sigh* I just don't know anything anymore. This is about it... leave a comment. help me with my petty problems, just don't be mean. I don't think I could take it. But i do enjoy constructive criticism, quite a lot actually. I am all for self improvement.