I feel different.

Lately, I've become more solemn. I don't really know what it is, but I just feel flat out lonely. Every day I wake up alone, and every night I sleep alone with the exception of a few text messages shared between my best friend and I. I just feel like I'm always going to be alone, which I know that's probably not the case, but it just feels like it, you know? I don't know, actually.

I spend most of my time alone, writing some, reading some, listening to music, making covers of my favorite songs, and using tumblr. I have almost no contact with the outside world, except for school. I find myself mentally detached from it all, though. I don't feel like I belong here at all. I guess that's because my only real friend lives over 1,000 miles away, I dunno.

Ehhh some people think I'm just stuck up, and that's why I don't talk to people. Which, that may be partially true. I've noticed I have a huge superiority complex problem, recently. I try to put myself at the same level as most people, but most people I've met are complete idiots who can't do anything right to save their own damned life.

I recently got selected in an audition to do a collaboration cover on youtube for one of my favorite songs by one of my favorite kpop groups. It really made me happy and like I found something I'm good at - singing. The problem is, even though everyone I interact with ONLINE says I have a great voice, they never hear it in real life. They hear it on a lame little samsung digital camera recording. It's definitely not the same as hearing my ACTUAL voice. And so everyone in my family who's heard me sing tells me I suck. I don't know what to do about that.

Wow, I don't even know how I got to that subject. Whatever, I'm posting this anyways.