You haven't seen Shirley

Today was one of those book nerd days where I realize that I'm not a typical teenager; I read books.
Not just teen fiction, but real, long books.
The kind that have an impact on your life.
My favorite has been Someday This Pain Will Be Useful To You.
It made me feel wrong for a moment.
As if the choices I've made are somehow worse than other peoples.
Probably because last night I kissed one of my guy friends.
I don't think he meant to, I know I encouraged it.
But now, I feel like it was stupid of me.
The last thing I need right now is a relationship.
After all, in six months, I'll be FAR AWAY.
I love those two words.
Soon I will be FAR AWAY.
I can't wait.
College.
Oh yeah.
Six months and counting.