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ummm hi. this is my first journal entry, so im just gonna write what's on my mind, i guess. Well, lately i've been feeling really happy. I don't care what others think of me, im just being me. i thought that was great at first, thinking 'hey, im finally free!' but im looking at my new way of thinking differently now. I kinda feel like a stuck up selfish spoiled brat. i feel like im looking down on my friends because they're "nerds", but they were the only ones who like me for who i am. When im at school, my sense of humor is different. I dont feel funny, so i feel boring. my friends are always sharing their stuff with me, but i never share with them. how can i decide between being happy but mean and indifferent, and nice but miserable and depressed???? help!