2011, my new start.

It's been forever since I wrote a journal in here, I usually vent on Tumblr and Twitter and I don't know what has gotten into me, wanting to write a journal here all of a sudden.

Anyway, a lot has happened in my life for the past two years (damn, 2009 is now two years ago!). I changed in sense of dressing up, how I think and how I act. I look back at the worst event that happened to me and think, "Thank god it happened." You may think it's weird because most people would wish that it never happened, but what happened is what makes me now. And usually, the worst things change us into a better person.

Although in my case, I still find it hard to completely believe in someone. Sometimes I look at my closest friend and think, "Does she talk about me behind my back? If so, is it about the good thing or the bad thing in me?" I keep on being suspicious on others, but I can't bring myself to make a distance between us and end up being suspicious on them, even though I want to believe in them.

It's been twelve days into 2011 and I already have something I love about this year. I don't know why, but since the clock turns 00.00 on the first day of the year, my mind was..."refreshed" and all positive things just barged into it. All of a sudden I'm ready for a fresh new start on my love life, I'm ready for all the exciting things ahead of me.

Of course, I know there are problems ahead but I have a feeling I'm going to be just fine.