Chronic Insomnia.

I think the worst part of insomnia is when your eyes occasionally dry out and it hurts to blink. Insomnia is killing me. It has been for years. Beginning back in middle school, reflecting the depression I felt whilst my parents fought through me. Using me as a weapon... Making me a double... No, triple spy... Gathering ammunition to share to the other while they used it against eachother in the custody battle. Their manipulation tore me apart... Then the nightmares came, they were really memories, bringing up what I'd managed to bury for years. Then I found the key, the less I slept, the less I dreamed. Not that I had much choice. My mind created my insomnia as a defense mechanism, and I had no control over this. Now here I am, years later at 4:36 a.m. Wishing I could sleep.

I guess this journal was pointless... I figure I'll whore a bit... I've tried trades, but I read and comment people's stories and no one returns the favor... Any arrangements, just shoot me a message... My beloved boyfriend and I are writing a zombie story called Through Their Eyes... Give it a read? Pleaseee? Comments are loved.

By the way... Andrew, my boyfriend, created our awesome layout which he'll be tweaking all weekend... But I took the picture. It is actually my eye.:) take a look!!