I might just cry.

If you read my last journal (Oh my god, what did I do?), then you'll know that I entered a beauty pageant.

What the hell?

Yes, I thought the same thing after I signed up.

But anyway, the dateis getting dangerously closer is set for Saturday. I have a gorgeous black dress that I was considering posting on here. It's not slutty at all, which is amazing. I got my strapless bra, a slip (my grandmother forced me), some really sexy shoes, and amazing nails.I'm excited that I'm going to look hot. Why the hell did I agree to this? I don't dress up.

I'm going to get my hair done sometime this week, and then my aunt is going to copy it the morning of and do my pedicure.I've been barely eating and working out lots I've been dieting and exercising to try and make myself look like less of a fat ass.I'm nervous. I wish I could back out now.

wish me luck?