The fat cow has gone insane, but wait that's me!

Why can't I be size one that weighs 100lbs with non frizzy hair with no glasses or braces? It's not fair!
I'm not pretty, who the hell am I kidding?
I'm not dedicated to losing this fat under my skin. I'm helping it grow and as it grows the more disgusting I get.
Why can't I at least look good?
Girls have soft hair.
Girls fit in all their clothes which don't look tight on them.
Girls' nails are long and pretty. At the moment I'm ripping my long grown ones down.
I'm not a real girl. I'm a fat raggy doll that pretends, acts, and wishes to be a real girl.
I'm a disgusting joke!