I just need to rant.

It's as simple as that. Or not. I guess we'll find out.

I hate myself. It all comes down to that one simple phrase. Though, I suppose, it really isn't that simple. Those three words hold so much meaning, it's ridiculous. They sum up so much…
I know a lot of people say they hate themselves, but for me, I really do hate everything I am…
I hate the way I look: I wish I was born to look completely male or completely female. I am sick of being this weird mix of the two. I'm sick of being mistaken for a girl all the time, when I've made it clear I'm not. I also hate that I'm so thin. I feel sick when I look at myself topless. You see my ribs too easily. I want to gain weight (and I try) it just doesn't work. I want to be not so sickly anymore.
I hate the way I sound: My voice is so obnoxious. It's too high in pitch for my liking. Almost like Chris Drew when he sings, but not as…Flowing and gentle. More like a dying cat if you ask me. That sounds morbid, but it's true.
I hate the way I act around people I care about: I seem to be the biggest bitch to them in hopes they'll just leave so I don't get hurt of intentionally hurt them. It's like a subconscious block to make sure no one gets too close. Too bad people do, and we all end up hurt in the end. Sucks hardcore.

Okay, I could seriously go on forever, but I'm actually starting to feel better, so…This will be continued at a later date.