I'll always miss you

To say i haven't been sleeping is an understatment, because I have been sleeping just not very well. You haunt every single one of my dreams, their not even dreams anymore. Their nightmares. I wake up in the middle of the night crying because of you. I wish you understood the pain that I go through.

I know I messed up, I mess up alot when i comes to you. I lie to you all the time, but it's just to protect you. You don't know me anymore, and it kills me. So many things I wish you knew, but i can't tell you. So many things I want to fix but I can't.

I like you, and I like you alot. Your the only one who truly brings out the best in me, but you'll never know any of this. I hear a sad song and I think of you, "Back to December" "Believe" "The Story of Us" "tonight" They all make me think of you. I miss you. It's been forever since I've been this happy and now your gone. I didn't mean the things I said. Not one word of them, but you'd have to be a fool to believe any of them.

If you truely believed what I said then I guess you never knew me at all to think I'd be like that. If you couldn't realize something was wrong then you never knew me. If you can't realize I love you, then you never will know me at all,

I'll always miss you but this is farewell. You hesitated, missed your chance, now I'm gone.