I'm now going finish the rest of this journal with some random reflections:
Dilemma:I kinda like this guy called Alex (my best friends boyfriend's best friend), who really likes me, but I typed 'duvet' to him on Facebook chat and he didn't understand what I was saying. Also, he can't take his beer without adding orange sqaush to it. Also, he's a woman -- I've had to initiate almost every move so far. He promised me he'd change his ways, and I will find out if he keeps this promise on Saturday night it seems.
The text conversation we just had (typo's and misspellings are intentional):
Alex:I'm okish, still feel like a knob about Saturday night. I really dont want u 2 think I don't like u, im sorry, i promise i'll stop being such a women Xxx
Me: You're not a knob but you do need to man up a bit :p otherwise i'm just stuck in this limbo of doubt and confusion xxx
Alex: What do u doubt? Xx
Me:The likeliness of positive outcomes and the overall effectiveness of any possible future excursions of ours, I guess :3 xxxx
Alex: Sorry, what? Must be having another slow day, sorry Xxx
Me: Whether this is going anywhere.
Alex: Do u doubt cos u think i dont want to or cos u dont want to.
Me: Neither, more like if it would work. I want to but not if you always give me the impression that you don't want to, you get it? xxxx
Alex: Yeah, I get it. I'm sorry I'm like that I promise I won't be in the future Xxxxx
GRRR: BOYS.
^This beer is 60% orange squash . . .
It's next time or never. My friends are amazed I'm giving him another chance -- we shared a bed and he couldn't even look at me. Please wish him luck, I know I am. He's one of the most genuinely nicest, coolest boys I've ever known and maybe in the entire world. And I do care about him very much.
I met this guy on Friday night when I went clubbing in Bath City:
He is the best kisser in the world. IN THE WORLD. And yes I have every right to be the judge of that, thank you.
He literally swept me off my feet in the club. I couldn't stand very well in my heels. Also he's quite beautiful and was really sweet to me all night. Probably a player though . . . you can't be that great a kisser without being somewhat of a playboy. HUMUNUHHUMUNUHHUMUNAH.He invited me and my gal friends back to his place along with his (reaaaaally pushy) mates but we said no and he said it was fine and apologised for his friends (who kept touching me when he wasn't looking). We're connected on Facebook but havent spoken much yet but OMIGOSH HIS KISSING.
How creepy is it that i've put his photo after only meeting him once? 10/10?
Anyway he's everything Alex isn't . . . just made me realise maybe Alex isn't quite what I need/want. We'll see how things go on Saturday, I guess. Poor guy -- 3 points on his license, nearly fired, and the girl his mates are so excited for him to 'get with' nearly finishing with him . . . not his week :(