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I feel like crap. Why is it that I never felt this bad when it happened? I think all in all I just wanted to know that someone didn't think horrible things about me. But I guess you are not the person to count on. I mean why? I knew as soon as you left the room last night and couldn't even make eye contact that you believed it. That I am a horrible person. The truth is I tried so hard to make this trip enjoyable for you. I spent a week at home just cleaning my house for you. I saved my money to do nice things for you all. I tried to help you whenever I could. But it seems that none of that matters because I am a horrible person as for certain people say. How? How could you? I want to say I feel betrayed but more than anything I just feel sad. Sad that you were impressionable. That most people will think that I am a horrible person, that I will be made an example out of and all in all that my legacy will be of a monster. I am sad and hurt, not betrayed or angry. Maybe I deserve this, I mean maybe I do. I'm sorry but I just don't know what to do.