And I just can't take it

I don't know how to capture a person by the first line of my journal but I hope someone reads this.

So here it is, all laid out.
I miss him... I miss him so much it physically hurts inside.
And I don't miss him because he broke up with me or such but I miss him
because we aren't with each other. He lives in Texas...I live in Montana.
We only see each other twice a year.
And it's SO HARD, but so worth it. I wouldn't change anything about our relationship.
(except the obvious distance)
But I'm so broke down right now...I'm missing him so much.
See, sometimes I'm okay but sometimes it just gets too much to bear...
I need a miracle...