My big brother

I made him a birthday cake and everything. I was so excited to surprise him.
And he's stoned...
I miss him. I miss my brother so much, he's been replaced with this idiot
who gets high. I used to look up to him so much and now all he wants to
do is smoke.
It hurts so bad and I'm just crying my eyes out right now.
And everyone of you who smokes and is like "it's not that bad."
you have no idea, and I don't want to hear it right now.

I just miss him...and I can't do anything to stop it.
I just wanted to make a cake for him and then have us all sit down and eat it together
with the ice cream and it just can't be the same...
I can't even word this right because I'm just so out of it...
I want my big brother back....