I'm so sorry, but I can't help but cry infront of you.

:'(
Today is not good.
I just found out the worst thing ever......

My best Friend....
is gone.
Moved.
for reasons I will not speak of.

But gone.
Today was the last time I would EVER see her at school.
and now I never will again...
And even though I cry and scream, i know she probably won't be back.

The reason is so heartbreaking, I can't stand it.
I can't stand to even think it happened.
and it raises anger and sadness.
I just want to pretend this is all a dream and pinch myself awake.
But know..no matter how much I pretend...its all real.

no amount of music and words can possibly describe or fix this feeling....and I am going to go insane tomorrow when I walk into that school and KNOW that my best friend isn't ever going to walk through those doors again:(

I just wish....I could change things.
but I can't, I know that. and now I can't help but cry:(