I can't?

It's been awhile.
But I can't seem to forget what she said...
she said "Megan could never be depressed!" and she laughed.
I didn't know what to do so I just agreed.
I want to slap everyone pretty much. Can they not tell how sick I am?
it's not like I'm blaming them...I don't show it because I want to be happy..

The truth is, and I'm not doing this for attention.
I'm extremely depressed. I'm thought about suicide, I've thought about a way
out more than once. I've thought about how easy it would be to
end the pain. The thought of just ending it all is just...relief.

But you know what?
I am stronger than that.
I am not going to take the easy way out.
I'm going to fight this. I swear to my one and only God that I'm going to make it.
You know why?
Because I have God. I have Jaden, because of my family. Because of LIFE

It's just so hard right now.

I even thought about cutting...but I would never...I do it for him.
:) My Jaden. My sweetheart whom I plan on marrying one day. He keeps
me so strong...He keeps me stable. I'm so in love with and I fall in love with him
more and more every day...the love gets stronger.