Insomnia, my age old friend.

My sleeping pattern is so messed up. Like seriously, last night i got and hours sleep? I don't know if it's cause I sharing a bed or because I ended up falling asleep for an hour two later in the day but yeah... I hate it when my sleep is messed up.
Messes with my appetite and my headaches. Of course, my thought process too. Which is why this probably isn't very coherent but still.

I've been reading some more fan fic's today and I am genuinely ashamed of my own. It's awful in comparison. This isn't just a hobby for me, well technically right now it is but it's a way of life and hopefully, in the next few years it will become my lively hood. I want to spend my life writing. Okay, obviously it wont be fan fiction, I just do fan fiction because thats what people want to read, I know how it feels to get so emotionally invested in a couple and want their stories to extend beyond that of reality. It's a good form of escapism and everything but I want to create characters that people fall in love with. I want to take bits about people I love and make one amazing person, I want to create a villain people will hate and fear.

This has kinda turned into a rambling mess of words, but still, it feels good to get my thoughts out in sentences and paragraphs, like i'm filing them away in an organised, anal manner.

Kudo's to you if you read this btw ;)
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