To Anyone Who Cares

To Anyone Who Cares,
I'm so depressed but I can't show it. I show it and people think I am
suicidal a drama queen even. They don't know what I go through. The
don't know my struggles, my pain, my heartache. I'm on a back burner
like always it's nothing new. I've been an intruder since the
beginning of our friendship. They are cordial never close. You are my
best friend like a sister I just feel so left out sometimes. I know
I'm acting like a little baby. But will I ever fit in any group? Will
anyone ever love me for me? The uncoordinated goody two shoes who had
never fit in anywhere. The cold of winter is like a part of me, the
coldness we share. The summer we are also alike, like it's burning sun
I have a burning wish for it all to end. It has never been this strong
before. I can feel myself dying inside and I don't know how to stop
it. I'm not sure I want it to though.