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I'm just so sad all the time. I could be out doing something with a couple friends and having a good time, until I realize that I just have to come back to this empty house and continue to do nothing with my life. I've only got two or three friends left, and even they don't care much for what's going on in my head. I've tried talking to my sister, and all she does is stare at me. My therapist scares me and each time we meet, I end up freaking out and nothing's accomplished. I don't like going to her, and I don't like talking about any of this at all, actually, but it's all I can do to keep myself from losing it.
Whatever. I need to just stop rambling and go to bed.