I can't exactly help mental disorders without medication.

Second by second, someone thinks negatively. And if you me, I'd be your honoree.

Minute by minute, someone new hates me. A little, a lot, it's in all sorts of places.

Day by day, people won't look at me. They blow me off, they think I'm weird, they think I'm overly dramatic. Then people just make fun for being who I am.

See, it's so problematic to everyone else. But it doesn't even have to be. Why can't anyone understand, when someone has something wrong? I can't help myself, I have mental disorders, it's completely unfair. When I look at strangers, it's obvious. I can see through them and tell what their secrets are. But what could I do to help? I can't do anything. What help am I here?

Week by week, I'm forced to eat, I'm forced to exercise, I'm forced to work. When school is here to educate, the staff shouldn't be concerned about our health unless it is something that keeps you from doing the best in school, and on your work. Not like you guys care if we get fat and drop out after high school ends, you guys just have one hour of P.E. and I don't think you should be allowed to make us run, and test on all of what we do. You are responsible that we don't get hurt, get in fights, blah blah blah in the eight hours we spend there, but you can't just butt into our personal lives, it's not right. I'm not completely skinny, I'm not perfect, I can't do homework without help at this point. Teachers know that I stand up for gay rights, I was silent on the Day of Silence, but now they like to separate me from other girls. and girls have talked in the locker room, asking my friends questions. Why do you change next to her? I mean, she'd be like checking you out and stuff. If it's that big of an issue, change the locker rooms. People might be gay, doesn't mean they're going to hit on everyone the same gender. It's just like everyone else. But if you were put into a locker room, and you were the only girl, then what? You'd be checking all of them out? Hah, not exactly, unless you're a....>_<

Month by month, I lose another friend. I've give up on making new ones, because I'm tired of going over the same thing again and again. My friends get in trouble, they can get emotional. I try to help, but I do nothing. Nothing at all.

Year by year, people never realize, I'm Carli Cooper..and I want to make a change..towards everyone. I hate the way this world is. I hate what people go through. Nobody deserves it, and I just want people to want peace too..

I know the world is going to stay like this. One person can't make the slightest change. If only people would listen..

I know it's not my fault, but I take so much guilt, from all the things people have said and done, the things people left unsaid. I wish something could happen..I want this world to change..But everyone just keeps on suffering, remaining in never-ending pain..