Damaged Goods

This is like the 3rd part of In love with my Best Friend

Today i realised that its not right, Im not his and hes not mine and its not right to diplay my feeling. I had a chance and i blew it. Friends is all we are going to be.

I walk around like a headless chicken looking for him or anyone. Someone said I dont even have friends

I feel that is true,. more and more of my group are disliking me for being myself
Im tired of it all

Im very Anti-Social, I wont speak to my family
Im broken, damaged goods

Nate says Ill find someone
I dont want to ruin any more helpless people so i can be sustain for a while
I dont want to put myself through meaningless relationships only to break the other half

I dont know if im saying this because im not in the right state of mind at the moment but to me this is thinking time and thinking hard

I cant bring myself to tell my bestie.. Im so Confused at the moment, its not even healthy.

Things cant ever go back to normal and im scared.
Im scared, Im going to be alone for the rest of my life.