This is where I vent.

--Apr 26--
You said I never fight for you.
I've been fighting every day.
She told me that she like you.
I never told you, that'd be shitty.
She decided to tell you today,
even though we're basically in love, and we've both told each other.
I hate jealousy, I can barely handle it, now all I can think about is,
maybe you like her.
She's so much better.
SOOO much..
I'm not worth, shit.
You've been through me being with other people.
Maybe it's my turn.
To watch you.
I deserve it.
And I'm ready now.
I just want to know the truth.

She turned on me, and so did everyone else. Everyone has.
I am completely..I don't do what people do to me, I don't deserve it.
I've never had such disrespect.

I'm tired of myself. I'm tired of seeing myself.
I'm tired of getting terrible grades, I'm tired of hearing myself stick up for things no one cares about. I'm completely tired of trying.
I hate hearing someone say, "don't tell.." so and so.
that means you're hiding.
I hate when I try to make a point,
and I'm accused of making it a guilt trip.

Sometimes I feel like I should let him go, like he wouldn't even care if I did.
You never have shown that you care.
I've done so much for you,
and it hurt so bad when you said that I don't even know what it feels like.
It's funny, you haven't even realized what you've put me through.
Hell, do you even realize how much I fucking love you?

when I get the slightest bit upset, I get extremely tired. I want to pass out, and do nothing more. -sigh- goodnight.