I’m so tired of looking through tumblr feed and seeing everyone reblog these artificially lovely girls. It makes me want to run to the bathroom and throw up, so I can be as skinny and “pretty” as them. I don’t want to feel like I have to be size 0, have no butt, and wear certain items of clothing to be beautiful. I want feel confident to say I’m a size 5, and that I have a big butt. That I don’t have the biggest boobs in the world, and that I’m not the tallest. That I wear plenty of make up, dye my hair to a prettier color, and do way too many body modifications. (Piercings, tattoos, ect.) I want to be able to walk through the mall, and not compare myself to the pretty/skinnier girl walking past me, thinking she’s probably thinking, “I’m totally hotter than her.” I don’t want to constantly think that there’s someone judging me in some form. It’s upsetting though, because usually there is. I want this to make sense. And not seem like I’m rambling, but that’s exactly what I’m doing. Oh well, I guess.
I want to be able to look in the mirror and say, “I’m perfect the way I am.”
Sorry for the random rant.
Love,
Ella.