Every story needs a beginning.So where do i begin?

I am not the type to try and plan things out or to make drafts before i make the final copy. The first draft is usually the last draft to me for the very fact that i want what i write to be completely truthful. I usually tend to blast extremally loud music into the small white earphones contributing to my already present deafness. The reason for this is to drown out any distractions which usually is a non factor since i cant really focus when im writing anything remotely related to philosophy. This is not my attempt to rope in fame. This is not an attempt at anything but to try and reach some sort of ground where i can find the answers i need. This is the beginning. This is a declaration of curiosity and willingness to explore. With that i want to ask you. What do you wish to find for your selfs?