growing up

I am not close with my mom never have been and never will be she had me at a young age so she was never really around so she would go out and party and never was home so I would stay with my great grandmother so later I moved in with my grandmother that's when all he'll broke lose we did not get along I thing part of it is bc we both like to have the last word well in the beginning we was ok then things got bad I would it her then she would ask me why but I never really answered and the hitting got worse and worse till I would hit every time I got mad at her witch was like every day and one of the things that I hated was she would call me mom moms name she said she would get our names mixed up that would piss me off bc I dident like my mom so the hitting got so but that I had hit her a cuple of times with a frying pan so she got me into cousling. Witch I hated and I wouldn't talk much so one day my mom told me a lie that I was having a doctors apt but its was really a cousling apt and when I got there I was mad and I wouldn't talk to my counsler so she sudjest that I go to a mental hospital and my mom and grandma sent me there I will never forgive them
I think I wanted my grandmother to love me like a mom is spouse to love her child bc my mom never cared for me like that and I got mad when she wouldn't

Then I moved in with my mom karmas a bitch bc my mom would abuse and we don't get along and we went use to each other she would always go out and buy drugs then she started taking care of my greatgrandma when she died we dident have a place do go so we moved in with my grandfather instead of saving money my mom would buy drugs with it
right now my mom is in jail so I get to be away from her im enjoying this time