Ugh, I feel a pool of anger in me.

Ugh, I feel a pool of anger in me. And I’m embarrassed. No matter how much I try to get rid of the thought that he led me on, it won’t leave. Whenever I think about it, a knot forms in my throat.

I…I want to cry. I’m angry. I want to go and beat the living mess out of the boy, but at the same time I want him to come to me & be like: “I was just kidding. I like you too, Jessica.” But I know deep inside that it’s not gonna happen like that.

I’m jealous, jealous of the fact that he likes her & not me. She can’t even stand him & he likes her. He was the first dude that I’ve ever told about me liking them. & He rejected me. If he had no sorta interest in me, why did he act like he did? I feel like he might kinda like me but is too embarrassed of me to admit it.

But you know what…I’m not gonna let it bother me. I don’t even give a flying fuck anymore.

Okay, I apologize for my rant. I'm done now.