Why My Best Friend Won't Talk To Me.

We were best friends since we were two years old. He's liked me since 5th grade. I've liked him since 4th. We've both confessed this to each other multiple times, but not at all since 6th grade. Lately, he's been hugging me every chance he gets. He'll walk with his arm around me in the hallway at school. He'll hold my small hand in his large one. We sit next to each other every morning. I've been having some really weird dreams lately. The ones where we're all alone, and he kisses me. That kiss turns into more and more every time. I just can't help myself. He's just so nice... he's funny... he's smart... he can always make me smile. Today, we went on a field trip for the annual end-of-the-school-year barbecue, to the the local park. Their, I made one of the most idiotic mistakes of my life. I decided to confess my feelings. I went up to him, and as usual, we hugged. Basically, the dialogue went a little bit like this...

Me: "Umm... yeah. So, I like you."
Him: "Mmhmm..."
Me: "Like, a lot."
Him: "Okay..."
Me: "I'm going to go away now."
Him: "Have fun."

For a while after that, I sat under a tree, in complete and total silence, staring at the ground. By a while, I mean about 30 minuets. During this time, no one said anything to me. No one noticed me. Back to the dialogue, after the half-hour...

Me: "Please say something... anything..."
Him: "I don't know, maybe later."

I know I did something wrong, I just have no idea what.
May 27th, 2011 at 01:35am