why does it have to be me?

I can't understand this. It's not normal. It's beginning to scare me a lot. My hair's falling out in lumps,Ive lost half a stone this week,i'm getting paler and paler......my mom thinks my eating disorders are back but they aren't. I've been passing out a hell of a lot more now,i'd wake up on the bedroom floor wondering where 2 hours have passed. I hate to think about it,but it's the only thing i can think of..dear god not again!! why me!! i'm ugly enough and now this!! Might aswell go hide in the gutters now before the freak show comes looking for me...