My life

On the outside people see a pretty smart girl. I get good grades and am a cheerleader . But no one knows the real me. Everyday I go through hell. I put a mask on so other people are happy. I have cut my arm because of my pain.I'm depressed alone and sometimes just wanna die. I have a hrd time trusting guys. I was molested. I throw myself at guys cause I I think I need to. I have confused love with lust. School is my escape. I try to be someone I am not and I hate myself. I feel that I am a waste of time.