wanting to be normal...

I SWEAR TO F***ING GOD I HATE THIS!!!!!
I never told anyone about the fact i had dyslexia,i felt they would think of me as an idiot or of a lower class,so i always kept my mouth shut. For my exam i did every subject at a higher level,exceot irish to try to challenge myself but today i sat my maths exam and one of the questions was like
ax+x2=3 or something.
My brain told me to give up.
I couldn't do it
I wish i could but i couldnt.
Half of the questions were skipped because all i could see was a blur
As soon as i saw the last question,my brain told me to just leave and if i fail,well i fail,i tried.
But the thing is i still have paper 2 to complete which is about 10 times harder,i dont even want to go in to sit the exam i'm so depressed.
I mean,i told my friends it went well enough because i didnt want to blame my dyslexia.
I really hate this. I just wish i could be normal.