It Feels Like Something's Missing..

I don't know why, but lately I've just been confused and changing my opinions about...well almost everything about my life. I used to be so sure on a lot of things...like my summer plans, my future career, the school I would transfer to, everything. But now for some reason, I'm having my doubts.

I feel like I need to expand my horizons or something...there is just something missing right now. Sure now that school is over the fun and social aspect of life has cut down dramatically, but I don't think that's it. I'm reconsidering my future career idea..trying to figure out if I should get another job this summer on top of the one I have now...wondering if I should take an online class for early college credit. I just don't know.

I'm also trying to figure out if I still have feelings for this guy or not...but he's leaving for college in like three months so after he leaves I feel like everything would be pointless. Plus, our friendship is at such a great state right now, I couldn't bare to lose it right before he moves away. My intense feelings are gone...but for some reason I feel like I shouldn't move on, or some crazy crap like that.

I feel like this summer before college is going to be this huge transitionary phase for a lot of me and my friends, and I seriously don't know what to expect. I usually try to figure and force myself to discover what I need and what's missing, but this time I'm going to have to be patient and see what fate has in store for me. Who knows what's going to happen? It could be anything..