A Look Into My Mind Pt. 1

I keep screaming but no one can hear me.
Or maybe they just don't want to.
I want to cut. I want to feel pain that has a reason for why it's there.
I have suicidal thoughts.
I feel like ever since she found out about my drug use, she doesn't care about my feelings.
I don't think anyone realizes how serious this is--including me.
The worst part is that this pain has no reason.
I've tried to search for one but I can't find anything.
I just want someone to listen to me without any judgements.
Without teeling me what I need to do and what I need to stop doing.
I just want someone to listen.
No one understands.
They try to comfort me by saying they do but that just makes me even angrier.
There's so much anger, frustation, and emotion build up in me.
My head aches from the pressure.
I just need to scream.