Dont you wish it was all a dream???

Im sorry... Im sorry for what i did to you... Im sorry for what i put you through, im sorry for everything. I let my emotions get the better of me and depsite my love for you i wanted to cause you pain. Despite my desire for your smiles i wanted to see you cry. But only for a minute. Only so you could see how you made me feel. Only so you could see the hurt in my soul when you said what you said about me. Only so you could be apologectic for your actions. But i didnt know that what i said to you, will also cause you to hate me and wish i never existed. cause you to wish that i never were created in the womb from my father's seed and my mother's egg. Made you wish that maybe just maybe i never even held the breath of oxygen in my lungs resulting in my first cry. I made you hate me. And i hate myself for doing that to you. I hate myself for hurting you that deep.. And even though you hate me, i deserve it. Cause what i did was no question. It was deliberate and intentional and i was wrong. Im sorry.. Always