Breaking

Dear Journal,
I am falling apart. I am not me anymore. I feel sick and tired and no one understands. It's getting harder to hide but I have no choice. My head hurts and my heart is screaming for a way out but there is none. My mom keeps yelling. Today she told me I was a bad daughter and I did nothing for her. It hurts. I hate being yelled at. All I want to do is drowned in my tears or fall into a deathly comma. No one gets me and every thing's closing in on me. It's harder to be happy then it used to be. And when I smile it feels so fake. I can't breathe, I can't sleep, I can't think. I'm dying inside slowly slowly. And all I can hope for is that one day all these tears will somehow wash away all the pain.
-Nicole.